This time last week I was 30,000 feet in the air having a panic attack. This is the way I start pretty much all vacations (Remember my honeymoon plane flight)? by voraciously spraying my Rescue Remedy (it’s like an herbal Zanax for hippies or people who hate to medicine) in my mouth. I always go way beyond the suggested dosage of six to eight sprays and often have to stop myself from ripping off the atomizer and downing the whole bottle.
I brave these flights because something wonderful always awaits me when I land. This time, it was my annual reunion weekend with my high school friends at a rented house in Palm Springs.
Despite the fact that I look forward to these kinds of trips for months, I almost cancelled. With only a few weeks to go before Craftcation, it seems like no matter how many things I do everyday, my to-do list seems to be longer at the end of the day than at the beginning. I have a hard time relaxing when there are unfinished tasks. I’ve always had this idea in my head that once everything is done, I will take a break. I wrote about how I discovered the benefits of taking a break here.
I’ve been a creative entrepreneur for over ten years. It’s a bit embarrassing that it took me until just this past year to realize that my to-do list will never ever ever be empty. Once I realized that, I knew I needed to find a way to take a break even while there were still things that needed to be done.
Instead of canceling my trip, I reread Eleanor’s post: What to do When you are Doing Too Much. I took a deep breath. Then, I grabbed my gigantic to-do list and portioned it out over the next two weeks. I tried not to think about things that weren’t on that days list.
So there I was in Palm Springs at the amazing mid century marvel rental house with some of my favorite women in the world attempting to let go of my to-do list and be present in the moment. I swam in the pool with lovely white clouds in the lovely blue sky and palm trees overhead and mountains in the distance. I laughed until my sides ached as my friends and I retold stories of high school antics we’d recounted dozens of times over the past 20 years. We ate and drank margaritas. I listened to my friend detail the week she spent at a silent Vipassana meditation retreat and how by day three her monkey mind (a barrage of restless thoughts) finally calmed down. I cried along with one of my friends whose struggles to have and then adopt a baby are heartbreaking. I listened as my other friend excitedly talk about her new love and talked about married life with those of us that has found our other half. I woke up early every morning and listened to the birds chirp while I worked out re-branding ideas for Patchwork and Craftcation, then drew in my sketchbook until my hand cramped. I tiptoed into the kitchen and quietly started cooking breakfast for everyone while they were still sleeping. And, both days, I stayed in the pool until my fingers pruned and the stars came out.
Also… I read — 99 problems but a Baby Ain’t One Megan Silianoff’s (Greetings from Texas) memoir about adoption and cancer that we posted about in last month’s book club, The $100 Startup: Reinvent the Way You Make a Living, Do What You Love, and Create a New Future by Chris Guillebeau and Hyperbole and a Half by Allie Brosh.
Sadly, when I’m at home, I rarely make time for reading. I have a stack of 20 books on my nightstand and I’m lucky if I can squeeze in reading a page or two a day. There was a time when I wouldn’t go anywhere without a book. That time passed when I got a fancy phone and realized I could answer emails, check social media and catch up on blogs (aka work) in those free moments while waiting in line at the post office.
Then it was time to leave Palm Springs. My plane landed late. I was still filled with adrenaline from my flight anxiety after my husband had gone to bed. Normally, I would hop on the computer and return emails or open the iPad and bookmark some blog articles. Instead I laid down on the couch and opened Megan’s book that I had nearly finished while away.
My house was quiet and dark. I thought about my husband sleeping in the next room, the stars that I knew were less visible here than they were in the desert darkness of the past few days and our chickens huddled up in their coop as I listened to the hum of the refrigerator coming from the kitchen. Then… my list of things to do crept into my mind and I pushed it aside and said to myself, “I’ll see you tomorrow.”
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